So Christmas is Saturday and I have yet to buy Christmas presents.  The adjustment to a full time job while trying to maintain life as a full time single mom has proven to be quite the challenge. 

Ok, It is already December and I am totally unprepared for Christmas.  The bright one that Iam, (NOT) picked up a few Christmas gifts the other day while I was at Wal Mart.  I was in a hurry, as usual, and I just threw the cold stuff in the refrigerator and left all of the other bags on the floor.  

I think one of the hardest things about being a mom is the guilt you have when you think you are being a bad mom.  I recently went back to work after being a stay at home mom for 7 years.  My life has gone from somewhat organized and relaxed to mixed up and always on the move.  I am not complaining, I love my new job.

I know it is a little early to talk about Christmas, we haven’t even had Thanksgiving yet, but for those of us that are “planners” we have been thinking about Christmas gifts for the last few months.  It’s true I have already bought several gifts, but I still have plenty more to buy.   A great gift idea is to help someone start a family tradition.

Today I read a post on Facebook written by a friend that lost her teenage daughter 4 years ago. 

The pain that is deep in her soul breaks my heart.  How does one deal with the loss of a child? 

The day we discover we are pregnant our entire existence changes.  We are no longer on this earth for just ourselves.  We have made a commitment to raise and love another human being in a way that only a parent can understand.  We have hopes, dreams, and great expectations of what our children will become and what they will accomplish in their lives.  The idea of not seeing them reach those is terrifying.   I never feared death until the day I gave birth to my first child.  From that day forward I became afraid of anything that could possible take me away from him or him away from me.   Love for your child is the deepest most sincere emotion you will ever experience.  How do you make it through this life when someone you cherish and love more than life is taken away from you? 

Job description: 24 hour 7 days a week emotional roller coaster, that will challenge you physically and mentally.  Must be able to lift up to 50lbs of dead weight at any given time.   Other responsibilities include but are not limited to, cooking, cleaning, plumbing, laundry services, landscaping, psychologist, mediator, entertainer, and shuttle services.

Yeah that’s right, it is not a job for the weak or faint of heart, but it is the most rewarding job on the planet.   Everyday you wake up and you look into the eyes of your beautiful precious children and you will know that the income you receive in the form of unconditional love is priceless.